Where am I?

You are in a place of waiting, a reconstruction of ideas and identity is taking shape. You are finding your vision. Your dissatisfaction comes from not knowing how to simply be. If you would allow yourself to simply be and find gratitude for the many things life offers in just being, it would propel you to the next leg of your journey. Rather than thinking you’re going nowhere, realize where you are. Allow the moments of rest from wanting and knowing to bring you into being. How can a few days, a few months, a year or more of not knowing your direction keep you from being? Perhaps this is one of the last wantings and desires which keeps you secure. Let not knowing secure you. Let it bring you into peace. Find your worth without a goal, without a direction. Can you imagine you’re just as you should be without having to be anything, do anything? Why does this frazzle and unravel you so? What are you getting from having to go somewhere, be something? Until you can simply be yourself with no wanting and without the security of direction you cannot move forward, at least not in the fashion that you deem to be most beneficial. You want freedom, that means freedom from all wantings and wishings. The moment you wish something you are no longer free for what is. You can choose to loose yourself in desire and direction or you can still yourself and see yourself now. The answers are not somewhere or someway, the answers are now, in whatever place you’re in. Choose to see them. There is in fact no waiting place, it is as active as any other, it is that you are not comfortable without direction, without answers. But now, right now, is where you’ll find your greatest gift, your vision, your version of the truth and it shall set you free!!

Why am I so dissatisfied?

Dissatisfaction lies in not being wholly (holy) present now. How could you be dissatisfied if you are communing & at one with all that is? It is only when we are caught up in the trappings of the future or the past that we can not see the contentment of now. Now is where you are and where all you wish to get to, is. If you take yourself out of the present you find yourself lost to the gifts this moment offers. Your searching is then for something you’ve already found but cannot receive.

Seek that which is in front of you and you will find all of creation opened & offered to you.